broken record.

Someone please explain to me how it's possible to fall in love with someone

who hasn't quite fallen in love with you yet.

And someone please explain to me 

why the beatings of my heart 

are synchronized to yours

and yet the beatings of your heart 

don't quite match up to mine.

Because I've tried for years to somehow

 change the pattern so that one day 

we could dance to the matching rhythm. 

But you've never been much of a dancer. 

You've always been jealous of the way mine sounded.

Because your heartbeat seemed to always be out of tune.

And so you borrowed mine and never gave it back.

And that would explain why my heart keeps beating 

but no longer sounds the same.

Because now my heartbeats are a little irregular.

And now the heartbeats are dragging

and they're a little delayed.

Now they're a little out of tune 

and a little overused.

And each heartbeat hurts a little more than the last.

And now each heartbeat comes 

with the thought of you.

And now my heartbeats don't match the innocent melody.

Instead they match the crooning cry of a jazz lullaby.

And the words it sings no longer seem to be smiling.

And I tried changing my song for you.

But you were never willing to match yours to mine.

And I'm a little embarrassed by how many nights 

I've spent awake trying to rewrite the music.

But you were never willing to learn how to harmonize

 to my tragic melody.

And my heart's now a broken record.
And the only audible line is
"I love you."

And its always been your favorite.

Because you were intrigued by the scratches

and the irregularity of the tune.

The irregularity that matched up with my broken heartbeat.

The heartbeat you enjoyed breaking.

The broken heartbeat you were never able to figure out.

But don't you worry.

Because my heart no longer sings for you.

And my heart no longer beats for you.

Because I've found my rhythm.

And my broken lyrics now match perfectly to my broken heartbeat.

But at least I can carry a tune.

Because baby, my heart doesn't sing for you.