insignificant

I fear the insignificant things.

The irrational things. 

Because maybe I'm just a little irrational 

and maybe it's because I'm scared of myself. 

Scared of what I'm capable of..

or of what i'm not.

I'm scared of being in love

but mostly I fear that I won't ever be able to know when I am.

I'm scared of promises.

Because broken promises are irreparable

because if I hear one more empty "I promise" 

I think I'll lose it.

I'm scared of the unknown

but not as much as I fear the known.

Not as much as I fear the past.

I fear the way you say my name

because I know that I'll do anything just to hear you say it.

I fear you'll see the way I look at you. 

I fear the way you look at me.

But mostly I fear that it isn't the same way.

I'm scared of being forgotten

only because I'm scared of having to remember 

what isn't mine anymore.

I fear being lost.

But I fear being found by the wrong person.

I fear falling and not having you there to catch me.

I fear that I'm trying so hard to reach you

to hold your hand

to see you smile

to make you laugh

but you're not there.

I fear that I wont ever be good enough.

Because all I've ever wanted was to be the right one for you.

And I'm scared. 

Scared that you won't feel the same way.

Because you're the right one for me

and i'm just trying to figure out how to be the right one

for you.