solve for "x"

I remember my first heartbreak.

It was between me, myself, and I.

Because "me" forgot how important it was to love "myself",

and "I" never really knew how to love "me".

And I remember how much it hurt falling out of love.

Not with you, but with myself.

I remember being happy with who I was.

And I remember the day I decided I wasn't.

I remember not caring.

And I remember caring too much.

I remember trying so hard to make things work.

And I remember when you didn't.

I remember lonely Sunday nights

and lonelier Monday mornings.

I remember waking up with swollen eyes and a heavy heart.

I remember November 26th

but oh how I remember November 27th.

 I remember when "x" knew who she was and 

when she never needed help being solved.

 I remember when the equations were no longer 2+2.

And I remember when "x" got introduced to "y" "m" and "b".

And I remember when x didn't have to ask "y"
for all of the answers.

Because now all "x" seems to know how to say is 

"y"

"y"

"y"

So please,

solve for "x" 

because "x" has yet to be solved.